Time t do a proper blog post again .
Yes , school's finally , officially over for the time being .
But still , had t return t school for a series of events .
And of course , i cant wait for CO camp .
It's saddening , cause the seniors are gonna leave .
Major tons of projects t complete before the end of the holidays as usual .
Many homeworks also , followed by meetups with gans and friends .
310509, SundayToday , went t Ghim Moh followed by Clementi .
Had a great time with two of my dearest cousin .
During my time there , was talking t several people on Msn .
Basically , those people includes , Zoel , Weijing , XinyiHeartheart , and Trina .
Ohmy , a very long time since i last talked t Trina alr lahs .
Super glad that she hadn't forget me just yet
Yea , meetups soon .
Downloaded songs for Uncle and Inessa , and watched some videos .
Had a wonderful time singing together with Inessa as well .
It's sucha long time since we sang together alr .
Also , watched some NG scenes behind Boys Over Flowers .
As usual , i taught Inessa some of by self entertaining tricks .
Which is , by replaying a certain funny part over and over again .
Yes , it may sound lame t you , but it's fun for me .
After which , watched Boys Over Flowers on Mysoju.com obviously .
Lee Min Ho totally rocks lahs . !
Anyway, was contacted by KrichelleXinggan's stead , Ivan .
He told me that Xinggan had gone mia suddenly, without contacting him .
There's obviously something wrong eh .
She wont not go home for one day , and did not contact her stead .
After which , few of us started to get paraniod .
Zoel asked me too , and i told Brian about it .
Brian went Cp , with hopes of finding Xinggan .
And then , continued talking t Zoel .
He's god damn funny lahs , keep nudge people .
Brian soon went home , and talked t me .
Kinda had a heart t heart talk with him , yea , it sound weird .
Brian , if you're ever reading this , just remember what i told you yea ?
After dinner , watched Camp Rock with Inessa .
I like the finalle song sang by Demi Lovato (I think i spelt it wrongly) .
010609, MondayToday , went t Mac t have lunch and t meet Sexaye .
While Mum went back home t get some stuffs , stayed at Mac with Sexaye .
JoshuaFather spotted us in there and came round t say hi .
Due t the time constraint , couldn't talk t him much thought i've much t say .
Took 372 t school with Mum and Sexaye .
Saw ShuhuaMeimei together with JodyChocolate .
Went t hall , for the CO camp concert thingy .
Chose the songs , and planned about the items .
God , i was so sleepy lahs .
Was like sleeping after some time lahs , stupid pig me .
Anyway that , homed with Mum as i have no idea where Sexaye went t .
Drank cold drinks as the weather was super hot and watched tv .
Stupid , i missed my internet connection lahs .
If not for the fact that my parents kept it from me , i would watch BOF lahs .
Made me felt super bored , and decided t call Weihan up eh .
Lols , he very funny siol .
He told me that his cousin , Thomas , viewed my F/s profile using his acc .
Lols , that doesn't really bothers me aye .
After which , he asked me how many gans i have .
And of course , told him proudly that i've 60 plus gans and i love them all .
He was super jealous of course , cause he aren't one of them .
I told him that Meimei , Chocolate and AngelineLesbie are also my gans .
Hehe , he was jealous .
So he decided to be my gan AHBYE .
Hhahs , that Ahbye of mine , seriously lame .
Chatted with him for 20 mins before my Mum got pissed off .
Told Ahbye t call me back in a few mintutes time and continued talking .
Was talking about JianhuiDaddy and some other people around this area .
Ahbye ahs , seriously stupid , thinking i never go Toa Payoh before .
Walaos , my cousin used t be staying there ohkays .
Anyway , i tried calling KrichelleXinggan up and had no response .
God , that Xinggan , really got me fed up and worried lahs .
Shitshitshit , i realised my energy level's getting lower , falling asleep easily .
Ohyea , today's 1st June alr lahs .
Time passed so quickly , making me unable t look what's happening around .
Basically , throughout all this while , kinda feel im drifting apart .
With all my closest gans and friends .
Including , CherylDumbdumb , LipingLover and NicoletteHoneylove .
I felt so bad , just because of the change i had t make in myself .
I actually didn't talk t so many gans and friends for quite sometime .
I know that Dumbdumb feels that change in me alr .
Last time , the person who knows me best is her .
And now , i had only t explain the things happening t me slowly
Anyway , t put it shortly , i just fell bad yea .
Like even me and ShaobinBabe is really and seriously drifting apart .
3rd June , Lover's court .
5th June , Honeylove's court .
14th June , ShaobinBabe's court .
And im seriously worried okays .
Imagine the time we spent talking t each other .
Im really afraid we would lost contact with each other eh .
So im trying t push out time t attend their court sessions , i swear i would .
Also , felt bad about WeifengAhkor .
I promised that i would celebrate his birthday for him before .
And yet , on the day itself , me myself was grounded for disgusting results .
Fcuk it , i hate this feeling .
020609, TuesdayI aren't feeling very good eh .
Woke up early at around 10am .
God , im still super tired alrights .
Yesterday night , after returning from school .
Watched tv like nobody's business .
Got super pissed off eh .
Some actor in Singapore , the dont know what Chen Jian Bing .
Yeapps , he alr say that there's no third party in his marriage alr .
But then , the people still insisted there is .
And the third party is the assistant of him .
Lols , he alr said alr lahs .
He said he and his wife filed for divorce during October last year .
And the assistant only came this year , during January .
Hhahs , which of his words the audience didn't understand man .
Typical kpo Singaporeans they are , those aunties and uncles .
It's also other people's business , guan ni pi shi .
Kpo so much also cant do anything , guan hao zi ji bahs .
Was also making cards for some special reasons .
The cards i made aren't very good , but still , i put in effort ohkays .
Was listening t songs and stuffs like that .
Flashbacks of my past with him , started in my mind .
I regretted the choice of the path i should take man .
I dont know what t do siol .
It's feels very terrible , like gonna die soon .
Anyway , called Sexaye up .
Talked t her for awhile and went t bathe .
WeihanAhbye didn't call back eh .
He's so gonna die if i ever see him again , which is obvious .
Well , still doing my cards . I need t complete alot eh .
Diediedie alr lahs , i dont know if i've enough time lahs .
But still , needa chiong ah chiong t complete it .
Hais , see , i so wuxim eh .
God , i feel so bored leys .
Totally rotting at home alr lahs .
I bet i would turn into a piece of rotten pig before the holidays end mans .
Oh dear , siansiansiansiansiansiansiansiansiansiansian .
Quarelled with Mum and stuffs like that .
Anyway , saw Yaode with his stead with Yewchong and co i think .
Hhahs , bet i alr know who he's stead is alr.
Sometimes , i really regretted what i did in the past .
I was torn apart , by all those guilt in my mind .
I feel so bad , helpless .
There's like totally no one i feel that i could trust .
I need a listening ear .This is t my dearest , if you're ever reading this .
Babe , im sorry t you .
Firstly , i dont seem t be a good enough girlfriend for you .
I cant go out as i wish t meet you , due t my strict parents .
Secondly , even if i had the time , i would have many things to complete .
Seriously , i dont feel that im good enough for you .
I bet the both of us are tired out from this relationship .
Cause we cant meetup as often as we wished .
I know that you're angry with me just that you didn't say out .
I know that you're a too good boyfriend i could ever have .
I know that you're always there for me .
But still , i somehow feel that there's a barrier between us .
Well , tell me how t salvage our relationship now , cause i simply have no idea .
